Monday, November 16, 2009


Today is the 11th anniversary of my dad's passing. I still miss him terribly. He was a larger then life kind of guy. Everyone that knew him, respected him. Even if they didn't like him. He was a man of very strong convictions. And wasn't afraid to tell anyone that would listen. My dad was a large man in stature and usually scared the hell out of most. If you looked up in the dictionary what a biker should look like, act or just plain be, my dad's picture would be there.

The past couple of years I have done really well with today. But for some reason this year is hard. I didn't sleep very well last night and I am already in tears. My dad and I were extremely close. He was a great dad!!! And no I'm not make a saint out of a sinner... LOL! My memory hasn't faded that much yet. He always remembered important dates. He always sent flowers and cards. He always did special things like "I love you day presents", for no other reason then because he loved us.

My dad was always very healthy. Then one day at work he moved wrong and a lump appeared under his arm. We all prayed that it was just a fatty tumor. But god must have been out that day. It ended up being Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma. After he was diagnosed, he fought for 5 more years. He got to meet two of the three monsters. He fought through the last weekend of his life. Even though they had him heavily sedated he was still asking for the right medicine to make him better.

He passed away quietly at 8:35 am November 16, 1998. My mom and I were at his side.

We go out for the day to celebrate his life. We go to where he liked to go and remember him and tell the kids stories about him. I want them to know him even though they were so young when he died.



Anonymous said...

My thoughts are with you today. He sounds like a great man!

Rue said...

Blessings to you - I do hope you have some peace and laughter today, remember your father and the good times you shared with him.

Dede said...

Your dad sounds like a wonderful caring man. I like the idea of celebrating his life day. Wishing you a day filled with memories and laughter.


Witchy Mom's Homeschool said...

May your remembering be a source of connection between you and your dad this day that brings smiles and comfort.

I lost my mom nearly 9 years ago, and I miss her just as much today as then.

"Perfect" or not, they were perfect for us, eh?