Thursday, August 27, 2009

Meloncoly Day

I try really hard to put only the good things in the blog. But today I am feeling rather down. It doesn't happen often. I'm a glass half full kind of gal normally. Things had started to turn around for us. The black cloud that was following us around was dissipating. Then more stuff comes from around the corner, when were just getting comfortable again. This roller coaster is getting old fast. I have been looking for work for the past 6 months. Only recently have 2 possibilities presented themselves. Both turned out not to be any good. Getting my hopes up that I might actually be able to contribute to the household, just to be disappointed. Now I know what I do around here is a valuable service. I cook, clean, run errands, take care of the children, preserve food and a ton of other stuff. All of which would cost a fortune if I had to pay for it. But that doesn't help pay the bills. It doesn't put gas in my car and it doesn't put food on the table. Please don't feel bad for me. Dh and I have done some very foolish things when it comes to finances. And we are working our way out of debt. This has been a long process and it is taking even longer now that I'm not employed.

Things are going to get better. This is a fact that I know. Just when and where is the question. But this is going to give us the opportunity to re-evaluate how we are doing things and see if there is anything that could be done differently. We have a couple of really big expenses that are going to have to be put on hold. I wish we didn't have to but they can wait. We actually have an item up for sale and if it sells then most of our difficulties will come to an end. I have to come up with a new sales pitch for it. So if you could send up a prayer that it will sell. It would be great.

I am going to try and see if I can get an etsy account. Never done anything like that before but I think that its about time that I put some of my skills up for sale. I mean I have tried to sell the afghans before but that was only at yard sales. I just need some faith in my abilities.

Whewwwwww! Sorry about that. I just needed to get that off my chest.

One day we will have property and no debt! It is just a long journey. Especially, since we didn't start off with a road map. Picked it up after the trip got going.... ;O) Thanks for letting me vent.

On to other things. Got 17 pints of dilly beans done this week. These are new to us. In about 3 weeks we can try them. They should be crispy as I didn't use tap water like I did last year with the pickles. Teenage monster went to her first therapy session this morning. They worked her like a dog. But she will all the better for it. She is doing basics at practice. Hopefully, by next week she will be able to start doing drills. I picked some of the spearmint and the chocolate mint today. I cut all of the leaves off the vines. They are waiting in a bowl to be cleaned. Then off to the dehydrator. It will be nice to have spearmint tea for tummy upsets and chocolate mint to add to hot chocolate this winter.

Speaking of winter it seems that fall has landed on us. I already have some warm and fuzzies about the upcoming winter. I just love being wrapped up in blankets while I sit around the house. Not to mention being under them in bed. The more the better. Last year we kept the temp at 62-64. This year I am thinking that 60-62 might be doable.

Well, I've rambled enough for one night.

Gotta Run,


Domestic Witch said...

oh sorry sweetie, big hugs to you! I've been down and out lately too.